Today

today after lunch, im surprised by my own reaction xD
happy happy day ^^

Countdown

100days to 1st professional exam..

Haih..

A joke by my friend:

We were discussing our costume for the   upcoming Halloween party, then she said: "I'll come as professional exam, scary enough?" 

She win liao, best costume ever lol 👍

='X

我只说了一句…

怎么就变成这样了呢？

说出来的话，也只是建议，没有指责的意思…

现在，我该怎么做？

我不知道了…暂时能闪就闪吧…

写一写，终于哭得出来了…

Last seen

It became a habit to see if you're still awake, to know whether you had a good sleep last night, and show you I'm still here when you need someone

Hope you can sleep well every night, sweet dreams

婷

i want you back..

where are you now? how have you been lately?

after your birthday, every little thing seem to remind me of you, i dont know why

there's so many things i wanted to tell you, but there's no way for me to reach you..

i feel bad sometimes, for not doing enough.. as your friend

i miss you, very much...

Just another day

Time will never pause for you, everything must go on

how can i fully utilize my 24 hrs? *sigh*

it's April now, professional exam in approximately 9 months..

9 months seem to be a long time, but i don't feel that way

stress level is increasing every single day..

I don't sleep through lectures now,

I don't daydream in dissection classes anymore,

I read, I write notes, I discuss with my friends, I approach my lecturers..

Carrying my "Clinical Oriented Anatomy" almost everywhere.. breakfast, lunch, coffee time etc.

I can't allow myself to stop, 

I must keep reminding myself to work hard..

One of my friend said "if i don't consciously remind myself to study, im actually a very lazy person"

well.. im lazy.. in fact, super duper lazy..

i allow myself to slack, everyday, and let time slip by just like that..

so its time to compensate the time i wasted in year one, dreaming through the year..

no more time to slack, i must keep reminding myself, repeating these over and over again

"don't stop" "no excuse" "stay awake" "control yourself" "read read read!"

Year 2 begins tomorrow

looking at the timetable, i notice so little lecture but so much to learn

scrolling down, i see "PROFESSIONAL EXAMINATION 1"

i think my heart skipped a beat, not because i saw some hot guys or whatever

it's because this exam is so near, im gonna sit for it in less than a year.. shit..

this exam will be a life changing one..

no more holidays for some time.. 

good luck :)

台湾

after N days.. finally feel like posting some photos here :)

i miss Taiwan so much, omg~!!!!! ><

lazy to caption each la, hehehe...

i wanna go again.... and again.... and again... and again... <3 <3 <3

Valentines Day

This post has nothing to do with the title, just that i ran out of idea what to write there..

2.01am, still not sleeping, my The Sims 3 is updating..
and i have nothing to do..


Well, i think the war is over.. i hope it really is..
being at work is good, i get to stuff my head with delivery orders and invoices and statements and files..
which is really good.. and i don't need to shut myself up in my room, put on headphones and turn the volume real high to avoid shouts and cursings..if there is any
finally stop being the messenger :)


I'm starting to know you more, i can now see the mask you're wearing.. sometimes..
it'll be awkward if i just go to you everytime you're feeling down
but if by any chance you get to read this post, and you know im talking to you
don't keep all the problems to yourself, i might not be able to help, but i'm willing to listen
im not good at texting, so if you need company, we can always meet up with some other friends and go food hunting or play card games or whatever other things you want to do
that's what friends are for :)


2.22am, The Sims 3 is still updating, almost done...

This always happen once in a while

It's a cycle, it always happen once in a while..

I'm glad my grandparents came over today, or else my ears will be filled with arguments and vulgar words from multiple language..

Can't say I'm used to it, I hate this..

Sometimes I even hate myself, unable to do anything though I'm clear that it's not me who light up this bomb

Both sides has their point

Both sides wouldn't back down

Both sides told me different stories

Both sides thinks that the other is wrong

I can't say a word about the situation

I can't help you two solve the problem

I can only keep everything you both told me and I can never know what is wrong or right, because I believe in both of you, not only one..

This is not my usual bedtime

But I'm gonna go to bed

To shut my ears and mind off

From any unhappy thoughts and voices

Hope you two can make peace tomorrow before i'm back from work..

I rather stay at home alone or wander on the road than listening to the war live from my house..